Little bit too late

so i have this aunt , who is in my age and think she is all that but in fact she isn't . she think she is god gift to the men but like i highly doubt they want somebody that done what she's done .

And it kills me , that she know what she done because i am highly doubt that she though it wore wrong when see made the unforgivable thing and went to an wedding and danced meanwhile her mother lay on death bed .

I mean , who does that ? I guess , she always been daddy's girl and i remember she hated my grandmother origin . Now , as a grown up it has been trendy to have different cultures she tried to erase the past and embrace her finnish side but its a little bit too late …

the traitor

i don't need no drama . save that to your baby mama

what kinda dumb bitch shoot an friend in her back

now i know better and realize you just wore an traitor

what comes around , goes around

and you will never go safe and sound

because karma has an way to comeback

when you at least expect

i might , take your apology an run with it

but before you owe your shit

the trust is limited

and

remember that karma has no deadline

one day you will pay the ultimate fine

with not having a friend

like me in the end …

Bittersweet feeling

As i continue ranting on my relatives for not knowing what right from wrong . I mean, on paper everything is very simple but when it comes to our family - nothing ever is ! There are jealousy when it should be support, lack of sympathy , emotions and empathy between certain people and its all directed to me because i have been travel the world . I mean , you would think they would ask how it was but after went on a world tour nobody wondered how its was . The envy in their eyes has now appear and the bittersweet feeling of not longer being on top . Especially for one of my aunt and it must suck . That her niece that is sick get get everything that SHE want !

My dysfunction family tree

i been told to keep quit because they shake in their boots and are scared for what i will write but after all they done i don't see why i should kept their secrets i know about them. After all you should be able to express yourself but if your surroundings only want to drag you down why would you do the  best for them when them don't return the favor ?

They are so selfish , egosentnentic and lacking in both empathy / symphany . When i wore little i looked up to everyone . My fashionable aunt , my cool cousin and his funny dad but now i realize that just because you got wear beautiful clothes it doesn't mean you wear i beautiful heart and my cousin and i , have grew apart meanwhile his funny dad was never "funny".

My other aunt has always been the one i wanted to hang with but never got to be introduced to her friends because she wore ashamed of me or something and my uncle , seem like he jealous at me . I know , this is an very dysfunctional family three i got but i apparently got cut of one of the branches like i wore nothing worth but you shouldn't done that because you now me and i have am never stand off from telling the truth about that got exposed when my grandmother passed away …

Go to hell

time is then ultimate truth-teller , which is unfortunately for you guys who have cut me out from everything but lets face it what could i except , you already seclude me from the events when i wore an child . you would think that people who is older then me got some braincells but apparently no . i guess, i wore the only one who got them ! When the judgement days comes , there only God you have to answer to and i don't think he would be very happy for what you done towards a girl like me . Do you have any conscience ? Time will tell but there only one place for people like you and its in hell …

Karma has an deadline …

Don't you think for an second that what you done will comeback at you because karma has no deadline which is both reassuring and frightening . I mean, walking around on eggshells your whole life because something you did way back , there will consequences for your actions bet on it ! The thing is my relatives never got this . They just walk through life with tunnel seeing and is pretty much oblivion to the world outside their own . Its mind blowing how they can be so caught up in their own problems and not giving an helping an hand to an relative . Last year , wore the icing on the cake and i knew i had to break up with them , sadly they had got the same idea …

Perfect target

i begin bullied by one of my teacher . I know a lot about bulling because i been the target in every school i went to . I am not sure why but i learned somethings and that is the seclusion is always because teacher begin to point out and make remark which the students caught on . Not only have i been the object for bulling in school , i have also been that in the family tree and become painted as the black sheep when i am the most innocent one of the bunch . Maybe i became the perfect target because of jealousy of my clothes or maybe they tried to push me down because i wore epileptic but shouldn't you lift those that wore laying on the rock bottom and have a hard time but for my relatives it wore perfectly fine , to pick on me like i wore nothing worth …