Go to hell

time is then ultimate truth-teller , which is unfortunately for you guys who have cut me out from everything but lets face it what could i except , you already seclude me from the events when i wore an child . you would think that people who is older then me got some braincells but apparently no . i guess, i wore the only one who got them ! When the judgement days comes , there only God you have to answer to and i don't think he would be very happy for what you done towards a girl like me . Do you have any conscience ? Time will tell but there only one place for people like you and its in hell …

Karma has an deadline …

Don't you think for an second that what you done will comeback at you because karma has no deadline which is both reassuring and frightening . I mean, walking around on eggshells your whole life because something you did way back , there will consequences for your actions bet on it ! The thing is my relatives never got this . They just walk through life with tunnel seeing and is pretty much oblivion to the world outside their own . Its mind blowing how they can be so caught up in their own problems and not giving an helping an hand to an relative . Last year , wore the icing on the cake and i knew i had to break up with them , sadly they had got the same idea …

Perfect target

i begin bullied by one of my teacher . I know a lot about bulling because i been the target in every school i went to . I am not sure why but i learned somethings and that is the seclusion is always because teacher begin to point out and make remark which the students caught on . Not only have i been the object for bulling in school , i have also been that in the family tree and become painted as the black sheep when i am the most innocent one of the bunch . Maybe i became the perfect target because of jealousy of my clothes or maybe they tried to push me down because i wore epileptic but shouldn't you lift those that wore laying on the rock bottom and have a hard time but for my relatives it wore perfectly fine , to pick on me like i wore nothing worth …

Pain in the ass

The thing is that i wore born healthy as an peach and wore pretty popular in school, until i wore eight when i became diagnosed as epilepsy which is an neurologic illness . Invisible to the eye but underneath which is the pain in the ass .

You would think that your relatives would give you a little sympathy or empathy but not when it comes to my aunts which make me sad because you would think relatives would be supportive and comfort you but hell no ! I am not sure why they choose this path to seclude me from the family events and make me feel like i am nothing worth . Now that i have grown up i realize that it wore fucked up they treat me as an condition and not an human ...

Wicked Games

there was never an friendship between my youngest aunt and me because she sat on her high horses and look down on me when i got diagnosed with my epilepsy . Like i wore an illness that she could get she refused to made an effort which is sad because i always looked up to her . As she wore some years older then me, i always wanted to get introduced to her friends but she never did which made me feel like i wore abnormal and secluded from everything .

Not only became i bullied in school , i became emotional tormented of her , the girl i used to admire but know i knew how twisted our relationship wore, as a kid i though this wore the normal standard but as i grew up i knew better because a family should be supportive but our never wore who courage me to become better but nobody never did except my grandma and my mother !

What comes around goes around

even if my heart goes out to the rest of my relatives , they didn't have the right to do that . I am specially  angry at my youngest aunt, who we gave a several hints on how to manage the death accommodation but because of jealousy, unhealthy economical she choose money before relatives . I mean , who does that ? Its in the law that every child should get what they want but because my mother and her really got along, she got and advocate in that made it impossible to prove that her wrong but in the end, karma will get you because it doesn't have an deadline because what comes around , goes around …

The last time

I could feel it when i entered the church last year and got a hug from the ugly skeleton in black coat while she met us in the entrance . it was like seeing a ghost , pale as the moon and the haunted thought of that she had been on wedding while her mother past away made me furious . Who is dancing away the night when you know this might be the last year with your mother ? I tried to calm myself because she have a way by making me always upset and went in to the church where my other relatives sat . Nobody said anything . Suddenly the preacher began to speak , he look like an character from Steven King and i couldn't wait to get out from the funeral from hell . This would also be, the last time i saw my relatives , or that was what i thought …