The happy family

its hard to play a happy family when you never had one . I wore born into homelessness , went around in borrowed clothes and pretend that i had one . Like those you see at television , where they supporting each other in thick and thin but truth i never had that and i got that . Now . It took a while to understand that but know i am getting that all they did wore just players in a stupid joke somebody decided to play on me , but it isn't funny ! The way they been treating me , like i wore the skum of the earth and make me feel like i wore nothing worth .

Not very Christian of you

the fact is when wore young , everyone wore pretty close but i am not sure where people begin to pick side but i am that they didn't choose mine . that wore their first mistake they did ! What they never really got wore i born bullied , secluded from the family feast but what i don't get is people who claim to be "christians " would do that to me because i swear on bible , i never read that religious people was putting sick people down , making them feel like they wore nothing worth - especially those who are sick and belong to the the family ? I don't make sense .

Whack

what it disappointment to the whole of my relatives don't see what they done but then again i should had knew but i wore just a child back then and pray the ground they went on ! That why i am blown away when last year , they did this unforgivable thing to us that only wanted to help , offer our time and gave advice to those we didn't like that much ( including my youngest aunt ) its like an stab in the back and i will never go back to a feeling like that because thats whack …

Little bit too late

so i have this aunt , who is in my age and think she is all that but in fact she isn't . she think she is god gift to the men but like i highly doubt they want somebody that done what she's done .

And it kills me , that she know what she done because i am highly doubt that she though it wore wrong when see made the unforgivable thing and went to an wedding and danced meanwhile her mother lay on death bed .

I mean , who does that ? I guess , she always been daddy's girl and i remember she hated my grandmother origin . Now , as a grown up it has been trendy to have different cultures she tried to erase the past and embrace her finnish side but its a little bit too late …

the traitor

i don't need no drama . save that to your baby mama

what kinda dumb bitch shoot an friend in her back

now i know better and realize you just wore an traitor

what comes around , goes around

and you will never go safe and sound

because karma has an way to comeback

when you at least expect

i might , take your apology an run with it

but before you owe your shit

the trust is limited

and

remember that karma has no deadline

one day you will pay the ultimate fine

with not having a friend

like me in the end …

Bittersweet feeling

As i continue ranting on my relatives for not knowing what right from wrong . I mean, on paper everything is very simple but when it comes to our family - nothing ever is ! There are jealousy when it should be support, lack of sympathy , emotions and empathy between certain people and its all directed to me because i have been travel the world . I mean , you would think they would ask how it was but after went on a world tour nobody wondered how its was . The envy in their eyes has now appear and the bittersweet feeling of not longer being on top . Especially for one of my aunt and it must suck . That her niece that is sick get get everything that SHE want !

My dysfunction family tree

i been told to keep quit because they shake in their boots and are scared for what i will write but after all they done i don't see why i should kept their secrets i know about them. After all you should be able to express yourself but if your surroundings only want to drag you down why would you do the  best for them when them don't return the favor ?

They are so selfish , egosentnentic and lacking in both empathy / symphany . When i wore little i looked up to everyone . My fashionable aunt , my cool cousin and his funny dad but now i realize that just because you got wear beautiful clothes it doesn't mean you wear i beautiful heart and my cousin and i , have grew apart meanwhile his funny dad was never "funny".

My other aunt has always been the one i wanted to hang with but never got to be introduced to her friends because she wore ashamed of me or something and my uncle , seem like he jealous at me . I know , this is an very dysfunctional family three i got but i apparently got cut of one of the branches like i wore nothing worth but you shouldn't done that because you now me and i have am never stand off from telling the truth about that got exposed when my grandmother passed away …